I'd like to start this post with how I was feeling yesterday: blocked. The negative energy coursing through my body was extreme, and my mind felt like the wires were crossed. I left work early, went home to sleep for two hours before waking up and diving right into my practice. It was nice out, so I grabbed my mat and went outside, looking for a way to unravel the knots. I had seen a ton of posts of yogis using Camel Pose as a way of opening up, so I gave it a try.
I didn't feel it right away. Whatever soul-opening and healing realizations these people were feeling, I couldn't get there. Rested but still negative, I left for CorePower. I settled into a C2 at 5:30 followed by a C1 at 7 and concentrated all my energy on my intention of self-love and self-care.
I did everything right. I flowed, I concentrated, I breathed, I relaxed my muscles and embraced the present moment. And when I got home, my muscles felt like jello but brain was still blocked. I felt like I wanted to cry and sleep and run and scream. I talked it out with Dan, accepted my mood and decided I would take the day as a loss, and fell asleep.
Fast forward to this morning, and I'm a different person. I am light. I am open. I am stretched out, calm, and welcoming. My blood no longer feels thick and cloudy; it feels like it's a part of me again.
The past 24 hours have been so important for my journey to becoming a teacher. Lessons learned:
- My body might not feel effects of yoga right away, but can feel the flow in the days that follow a practice. Even after taking two hours of classes, the results don't have to be immediate.
- If I'm patient, and if I embrace the body and mind's need for self-care, I can start to experience the benefits of yoga on a much deeper level.
I know I needed some self-love yesterday, and today, because I gave myself that time, I can breathe again.